To deal with a psychological disorder is one of the biggest stressful things you can do. There is a stigma that resides along with mental illness and most hide it in fear of being judge and called crazy. It is like a disease and sometimes there is no cure to it. Many people depend on medication to help manage their mood, symptoms, and deal with everyday stress. The two common psychological disorder that many experience are Anxiety and Depression. The worst part about that is that they both sometimes go hand in hand or one triggers the other. Be careful about what you say to someone because you never know what that person is going through.
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With an estimation of 7.6 billion people in the world, forty million people are fighting through the disorder, Anxiety. I don’t remember what’s it like to see with a clear vision. I don’t remember what’s it like to have an empty mind without roaming thoughts constantly telling you that you are worthless, useless, unimportant and most importantly telling you to slice your arm because you deserve it. These thoughts became so vivid that I began to believe them, began to act on them and began to lose myself one day at a time. Always stood by my side was, Anxiety, a scrawny, tiny girl with nothing but fear in her eyes. She made me fear everything even when things were going right. As I look at the mirror I can see my hands shaking, ears red as a rose, my heart beating gasping for a breath, but I couldn’t grab it. I couldn’t grab it- a breath. I’ve been dealing with anxiety for almost eight years and as I grow older some days are easier to manage than most. The American Psychological Association define anxiety as, “ an emotion characterized by feelings of tension, worried thoughts and physical changes.” You know what’s pretty crazy? Anxiety is a universal problem, it is one of the most common psychological disorder in the country. Everyone has anxiety, but the anxiety I’m talking about is the one that interferes with your life. The one that makes you want to jump out of your skin to escape the craziness going on within yourself. Again you are fighting a war, a battle, combat, a conflict within yourself that people fail to see. If you were to search up anxiety right now there would be multiple pages with a similar definition. All you need to do is breathe in and out, but this is the hardest thing to do when you are at the verge of a panic attack. |
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